Anger & Forgivness

Anger & Forgivness

I tend to loose my temper sometimes...

I get angry and say things out of reason.  I know that I can apologize, but what if I were not forgiven.  What if the person that you wrong only gives you one chance and once it's over, IT'S OVER.

What if "forgivness" didn't exsist.

What if God only gave us one chance?  How many of us would fail Him?

I know that I would...  I mess up, I sin, I don't always ask for forgivness, I don't always make sure that I show God's love and grace to everyone.  I don't read like I should, pray like I should, LISTEN like I should, praise like I should, seek like I should, obey like I should, try as hard as I can... at all times... day and night...hot or cold... wet or dry... good times or bad times.

But why?

Why do I not run to him when I am angry, why don't I stop, ask for help, slow my thoughts, pray, listen and then speak...

Why is it so hard for me to wait?

Why do I hear something that angers me, digest it, and BLOW UP??

What if that one second that it takes me to blow up, what if at that moment I knew that God was not going to give me another chance...
What if God said, Brianna, you're about to make a choice...  You can lose your cool and act stupid and lose me forever or you can think, take a deep breath and move on.

What if we were faced with a choice?  A choice to live life on the side of life where forgivness didn't exsist...

What if God made us choose and we chose wrong?

Would it be worth spending your life in a world-wind of chaos and turmoil?

When these thoughts start to flood my brain and my mind comes out of left field...  I'm reminded that GOD FORGIVES!  I am so thankful that I know His love... that I feel His love... that I can share His love and forgivness to the world.

When I get angry I try and think about the most rational thing to do... does it always come out that way... NO.
In those times that I slip up and mess up, I praise God for giving me more then one chance.

Lord, It's so very good to be loved by you!! 
Thanks for giving me a second chance and FORGIVING ME!!