"Hey...This is your job" "Will you marry me?"

Hey...
This is your job,


"WILL YOU MARRY ME?!"


So you know when God speaks to you and tells you that He has found the perfect job for you?! A job that you can do EVERYTHING that makes you happy!


A job where you can meet new people,  and make crafty things. Where you can organize events, dance, color, sing, praise God, PRAY, and just really work!  


I LOVE my job!  I can't seem to get enough of the everyday office stuff.  I feel like I am good at what I do, although there are many things that I need to learn and some of those things will come with age...  I  LOVE MY JOB!  I knew what I was getting into when I took the job but I never thought that I would become so obsessed with making it perfect and better then its ever been.  Crazy over it... I mean so nuts over your job that you eat and sleep and breathe the information. Day in and day out.  


I do that.  I think about my job all the time.  I work at my job like it's a marriage.  Does that please God?  I mean, I coordinate a youth camp... that's good right?  I get defensive over my work, that's not pride right?!  I invest my whole life into my work and I feel like it's all I have to measure my success... that's not stupid... RIGHT?!


I feel like I am in a failing marriage at times.  I feel like I have tried and tried to do everything I can but I am getting nothing back.  I feel defeated at times.  I feel happy and sad and tired and glad and awesome all at the same time.  But, it's empty.  Am I missing the "BIG PICTURE"?  Is God shaking His head at me because I am too absorbed in my work?  Am I doing what God wants or should I take a step back? 


Am I disappointing God  because I am in a failing work marriage?